It's a slight upgrade from military rations. But not by much.
[ Bucky eats, but with little joy, knowing this is a necessity, not an indulgence. Wakanda spoiled him, what with the farm and all the cool technology (guess who else is a fucking nerd).
He sees Tony is a little off-kilter after his makeshift surgery, but after a few moments stretch by, he finds himself about to burst. Timing? Pah.
He brushes some hair from his face. ]
This is gonna be a long trip, so we should probably just get this out right now. What happened...to your parents... [ He swallows a lump ] I don't have any excuses, I can't defend that I really did it, that it was my hands. I gotta look myself in the mirror every day and live with that. I could tell you about how Hydra found me, what they did to my arm, how-- [ his voice breaks, he has to look outside the tiny window into space to keep his eyes from stinging ] how long it took them to break me...
[ Okay, maybe this was a bad idea. He's never had to face the victim of a mission before, and even when he inhales to keep things in check it does little to quell the brittle feeling that's threatening to shatter his tenuous control.
Bucky stares down into his food, lifts a hand so Tony won't interrupt this word vomit. ]
But. Steve told me what you did, how you offered to help me before it all came out. He wasn't doing the right thing, keeping it from you. That little secret broke up your team. [ he clears his throat. ] But ah, my brain's not mashed potatoes anymore. Shitty as it sounds, I am sorry.
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[ Bucky eats, but with little joy, knowing this is a necessity, not an indulgence. Wakanda spoiled him, what with the farm and all the cool technology (guess who else is a fucking nerd).
He sees Tony is a little off-kilter after his makeshift surgery, but after a few moments stretch by, he finds himself about to burst. Timing? Pah.
He brushes some hair from his face. ]
This is gonna be a long trip, so we should probably just get this out right now. What happened...to your parents... [ He swallows a lump ] I don't have any excuses, I can't defend that I really did it, that it was my hands. I gotta look myself in the mirror every day and live with that. I could tell you about how Hydra found me, what they did to my arm, how-- [ his voice breaks, he has to look outside the tiny window into space to keep his eyes from stinging ] how long it took them to break me...
[ Okay, maybe this was a bad idea. He's never had to face the victim of a mission before, and even when he inhales to keep things in check it does little to quell the brittle feeling that's threatening to shatter his tenuous control.
Bucky stares down into his food, lifts a hand so Tony won't interrupt this word vomit. ]
But. Steve told me what you did, how you offered to help me before it all came out. He wasn't doing the right thing, keeping it from you. That little secret broke up your team. [ he clears his throat. ] But ah, my brain's not mashed potatoes anymore. Shitty as it sounds, I am sorry.